We got matching Christmas jumpers whooohoo!!!
"all work and no play never made me lose it"
aka the lie i tell myself during finals
Does the mobile app allow for anon asks or even random ones from followers?
Been chatting with a lovely person (I sense a blooming friendship :D) so I know the messages work, idk if asks do though, could anyone clarify or help me test this out?
Also, unusually social today, so if you lot wanna get to know me, nows the best time :D
It doesn’t matter if you’re on the mobile app or the browser. You can send and receive anon asks from both. But looking at your blog I’m unable to send an ask. You need to go on the browser and switch asks on. Once you do that, you’ll also get the option of allowing people to be anon when they send you an ask. You can’t change the settings from the mobile app. You need to do it from the browser.
I am not a persecutor but I will see if I can get help from Jazz.
Persecutor alters are highly.. misunderstood and demonized. Yes, they do harm the body.. they do cut, drink, smoke, purge, whatever it is that is harmful. And many, many people ask, “Why don’t you just get rid of them?” (As if it would be that easy anyway.)
The best way we like describing it is this: Persecutor alters exist because, while other alters may feel they need to harm the body, the guilt and shame and disappointment and embarrassment that it would bring them would be even more unbearable, thus making the problem worse and reinforcing a self-harm cycle. And so persecutor alters are formed.
They do self-harm.. because they have to. Another alter may feel so horrible to that point, and then the persecutor will come in and perform these actions—and take the blame.
Jazz says, “It’s a shit job, but someone’s gotta do it.”
This takes away that further emotional pain it would have caused another had they done it themselves, as well as lessening that original emotional pain that caused that need. Does that make sense?
Another thing a lot of people don’t understand is that the need to perform these actions is pretty much hard-wired into the alter. They cannot simply make that need go away with willpower, or any amount of logic. They cannot be talked out of it by people who think they are “helping” by “reasoning”. It’s difficult for people without alters to understand, as well as for other alters themselves. They don’t understand that it cannot be solved by even therapy—because it is the persecutor’s JOB, and it is imperative for them to act out these tasks.
I’m not sure if this next bit is true for other systems, but it is for us.
In our internal system contract, it can be amended that a persecutor cannot perform certain tasks—such as cutting. Jazz used to cut (more like scratches one could make with a safety pin, very shallow lines that disappear in a week or so). When he did that, it was already in the contract that no blood could be spilled. However, now he is not allowed to go that route at all. What he does now is.. Well, he smokes a lot more. He used to smoke a few times a day, but now chain-smokes. He is also anorexic, and refusing food is another way that makes him feel he is in control and able to release emotional pain.
Our (now ex-)therapist did not understand that internal contracts are binding. Because when “normal” people promise they will not harm themselves again, they may mean well while in a stable state, but they can easily fall off the wagon (what a silly idiom) when overwhelmed by emotion.
But once something is written and approved into the contract, not only are alters not allowed to do something, but there can be severe consequences—including having the gatekeeper(s) not let them out temporarily or permanently.
Our ex-therapist did not understand this. After Jazz agreed to never cut/scratch again, after it was in the contract, he meant it. She didn’t believe him, and then started accusing him of manipulating her, lying, and even of being suicidal and planning to attempt to take our life. Where she was getting this, we have no idea.
He remained calm and tried to explain the contract, but her accusations kept getting worse and worse, and when Elyse started having a panic attack inside, Jazz, told the therapist what was happening and that he needed to get her home, so he would make another appointment and continue the conversation the next week.
The therapist responded by 5150ing us. (And the rest of that story can be found somewhere in this blog’s archives.)
So, a persecutor harms the body so another alter won’t have to deal with what has been done. A persecutor MUST do his or her job. This does not make the persecutor a bad person, as it is just a fact of life for them. And a contract can be amended to define what a persecutor can and cannot do.
I am not sure if other systems’ persecutors are also protectors, but I would imagine they all are. They are taking this role on to protect the other alters’ future emotional well-being. Jazz takes this role of protector very seriously, and he also helps protect our system from other emotional trauma as well.
I hope that was more clear than I think it was. We are in a bad-reception dissociative state right now and I keep losing my train of thought. If you would like something clarified, let me know.
I didn’t know this and it makes a lot of sense. Thanks for explaining it so well.
10/10 would ride it into battle.
My hairdresser is amazing
Haha yea, busy lol. Total time is 207:00 right now.
Okay so I was going to list out each and every Pokemon with its IVs and potential etc but its gonna take hours if I do that. I have everything written down in my note book so it’s all very well organised I just can’t be bothered to type it up. I have 101 Larvitars, 37 Magikarp, 33 Gible and 69 Togepi. These are some good ones from each species. Send me a message if you want one.
3. Larvitar (m) Adamant, Outstanding, IVs: HP, Atk, Def, Sp. Atk, Sp.Def
29. Magikarp (f) Jolly Outstanding, IVs: HP, Atk, Sp.Def, Spd
29. Gible (m) Jolly Relatively Superior, IVs: HP, Def, Sp.Def, Spd
66. Togepi (m) Calm Outstanding, IVs: Def, Sp.Atk, Sp.Def, Spd